Day 5 | It’s Not a Puppy

Command:

“I will be found by you.” Jeremiah 29:14 (NIV)

Read:

14 But Zion said, “The Lord has forsaken me,
     the Lord has forgotten me.”
15 “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
     and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
     will not forget you!
16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
     your walls are ever before me.
Isaiah 49:14-16(NIV)

Reflect:

Sitting in my almost empty apartment, I felt so alone. I was a young, twenty-four-year-old woman, in the Navy, stationed in Hawaii and soooo far from God. At that time, 2007, I couldn’t remember the last time I talked to Jesus, or even thought about going to church. My life was 100% about me… which proved to be quite lonely.

I started to cry… I cried so much I don’t think I had anymore tears to give. Finally, I cried out to God “LORD! I don’t know what I’m doing! Please just tell me what I’m supposed to do for the rest of my life.” In that moment, I felt peace. 

The next day I took a pregnancy test and immediately it was positive. Again, I cried out to God, “This is it? This is what I’m supposed to do for the rest of my life? Couldn’t you have started me off with a puppy?” I knew that this was my answer from God. I was to be a mother. Finally, my life was not all about me, but a gift literally from God.

Little did I know 2007 my entire life was about to change - May 21st, my twenty-two year old brother was killed in the Iraq war; my parents were divorcing. I decided to end my Navy career to move home without money, plan, and seven months pregnant. Even though my life looked scary, my heart was full because I dove head-first into God’s Word and restarted my relationship with Jesus. I leaned into everything He had planned. He gave me peace, and blessed me with my son. 

React:

When you feel alone and lost, do you cry out to God? If so, do you trust him to carry you through turbulent times? If you’re in a low season (or really any season), give him your burdens and trust.

Pray:

Dear Heavenly Father, you are always with me. Everyday. Thank you, Lord for your gifts, your guidance, and peace. Amen.